- Fantasize about running away from my life.This can’t ever actually happen, mainly because I have a terrible sense of direction and am likely to find myself back where I started. It makes running away from my life a bit pointless.
- Take work to bed and attempt to do some lying down. But mostly I just fall asleep.
- Meet up with a caring friend, drink coffee and eat something delicious and over-priced. This strategy is quite effective, for two reasons – my friends are ALL much wiser than I am, and nice food and (even mediocre) coffee tend to make me feel Very Much Better About Everything.
- Create Something.Writing or painting tend to untie the knots in my heart. But sometimes those knots also seem to tie up my hands, or my hands are too busy reaching for chocolate…so it all gets a bit tricky.
- Converse with my spirit. Now this one ALWAYS works. A walk along the river where I have been known to speak my worries out loud and watch them magically dissipate. A favourite prayer that brings solace to my heart. Moments in meditation that bring clarity and comfort. I must remember to start with this one more often._______________________________
Tomorrow we get the results of my husband Greg’s latest CT scan. When Greg was diagnosed with Stage 4 Renal Cell Carcinoma (translation: terminal kidney cancer) he was given just 6 months to 2 years to live. That was 3.5 years ago. So, as Greg says, he has gone past his ‘use by’ date 🙂 It’s been an extraordinary adventure – dozens of hospital admissions, many surgeries, so many mountains climbed. Through it all, Greg’s been amazing, and our friends and family have been unbelievable. But Greg’s symptoms have worsened lately, and we are not expecting good news tomorrow. So prayers, good thoughts, wishes, chocolate… I won’t say no to any of it. I have a feeling I’m going to be eating a lot of chocolate.